“I was dead, then alive. Weeping, then laughing. The power of love came into me, and I became fierce like a lion, then tender like the evening star.”
Not long ago, I made a public declaration to move my life forward. I didn’t know how I was going to do it or, even what that looked like. Only that I didn’t want to stay in the space that I was. I set a timeline for it to happen over a period of 7 weeks. Originally, it was for a side project that I was working on which I began to put time in to with with an accountability partner. That plan eventually overlapped into a ThetaHealing® certification course called Intuitive Anatomy, which would ultimately take over all of my time. The course, was designed to be 3 weeks long, was condensed into a 15 day intensive… and intense it was.
The course is designed to look at beliefs around the body systems. It’s amazing what you find in your own body and what contributes to physical illness. Going into IA, it was a fun. About 3 days in, the triggers started and they got bigger and bigger. I found myself over a period of 15 days having massive breakdowns and breakthroughs. I can’t remember the last time I cried that heavily and that much. With each breakthrough, I found myself releasing scores of old beliefs and programs that held me back from so many things. Each time, I felt lighter and a little more energetic. I couldn’t stop in the middle, although, there was a point I almost quit because it was that intense. At the end of the 15 days, I came out a completely different to the point where I wouldn’t have recognize the person that came in.
Throughout the entire course, I worked on so many beliefs. Some of the beliefs were around things like being exposed as a fraud, lying and cheating to survive, integrity, authenticity, genuine, heart-centered, allowing love in, old anger, guilt, and many others. You can imagine how releasing many of these deep issues would feel so heavy. Throughout all of this, the one thing that was never on my mind was my side project. After keeping some active records for a few weeks and sending them to my partner, I completely stopped as I got deeper into IA. About halfway through the class, I put that project on hold. I’d been working on this project for 2 years and never really felt totally connected with it. I was not being genuine or authentic, nor was I passionate about it. It was one of the few times that I had truly listened to my heart and made a decision based on my intuition. I was learning in that moment what being heart-centered really was. Being in that space when you are authentically you. No masks, no fronts, armor, tricks or games. A genuine person, oozing with unconditional love, connected with all that is.
I remember when I woke up the morning of the last day and I knew everything was different. The colors were brighter, the sounds were crisper, everything sang. It was in that moment that I knew I had shifted into that heart-centered space. Once I stepped into my heart center, I wanted to feel like that everyday. I started to be more specific about people I kept in my life, who I spent the most time around, who I did business with, and so forth. I also began de-committing to a lot of activities that no longer served me in the highest and best way. The more space I cleared out, the more I created to allow new supportive things to enter, which they did. Opportunities flowed and people showed up exactly as I needed them. The Universe provided and all I did was step into what was given to me. What was best is I knew everything that came to me I could be authentic with and be my genuine self. I no longer needed the mask.
Of all the great memories I’ve created since then, there’s one that stood out to me the most. One the second to last day of class, we did an exercise where we looked into each other’s eyes and felt pure unconditional love. When I got to this one person, their love was so intense that I got extremely emotional that I began to breakdown and cry. This person embraced me as I broke down and cried for a few minutes. After I stopped crying, they said to me, “welcome home.” I knew in that moment, I had truly shifted.
I went into a certification course to further my understand of ThetaHealing® and came out in complete flow of the Universe. I released so much from myself which allowed me to live as my most genuine and authentic self. I knew there was a reason I got into Theta. It just took me to get out of my own way to see it and all the other miracles that were right in front of me all along. When you release so much that you’ve held on to for so long, so much that no longer serves you, you can finally experience freedom. I think in that class I finally understood what freedom really is. The best part is that I get the share it with everyone!
There’s nothing better than being genuinely authentic!